Nothing to hide - anything inspiring about her :)

Hi! I am Sunshine, and…
If you could read my mind, you’d be in tears. But even if you may see me struggle,

YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME FALL. :)

•People said I’ve changed so much. Well, here’s the truth, I grew up! I stopped letting people push me around all the time. I learned that we can’t always be happy.

I ACCEPTED REALITY.

And..

•I go to sleep:

I play scenes in my bed. I practice the things I want say. I have endless “what ifs”.

I make plans for the next day. I think of all people I miss. I think of all the ones I hate.

I ask my self a lot of questions.

And..

•I know how it feels like to be lying in bed at night surrounded by the complete darkness that fills my room, staring at the ceiling and trying to block out all my painful thoughts that time of night when everyone has gone to sleep, expect for me and the house is completely silent. That time of night where I can hear my heart beats faster and faster as it starts to race, whilst my eyes begin to fill with tears, when I start to feel that tightness to my chest and bite my lip, as I try to hold in my emotions. That time of night when I feel so completely alone, and like nothing could get any worse. When all I have to do is disappear and cry. When I can hear my thoughts ringing in my ears, as everything that I have held in that day starts to surface, when I lie there shaking, wishing that I have someone to hold me and that pain would go away, that time of night were my sadness consumes me and I become completely vulnerable, that time of night when I’m not a danger to everyone around me, but to my self as well.


&&& sometimes I wish I could fly away. Coz I don’t know how much longer I can stay.
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